Heard these guys on breakfast of champions the other morning on my way into the lab, It’s been a while since I’ve heard and enjoyed something new
I dream to heal your wounds
I spent last night going to see city and colour by myself, and it was an amazing time. However, I dont know if it was the mood, the lighting, or maybe just my exhaustion but I came to an uncomfortable realization that I have grown somewhat bitter toward most people and most things, well, mostly everything. It’s not a pretentious bitterness, and not an envious one, and it definitely doesnt seem to show. But I have this tendency of being unhappy with most people and things in my surroundings, they just tend to disgust or displease me. And its not that I feel that I’m any better than these things or people either because I equally disgust or displease myself a majority of the time and am just as aware of that.
The point is I become more and more keen on the things that separate myself from everything else, and when I am acknowledging this feeling its no more comforting than it is terrifying. All I could picture was myself much more bitter and much more alone as I grow older. I’ve always been somewhat of a loner, but I never wanted to see myself becoming that lonely person.
I also had several dreams of almost dying in really awful accidents last night after all of this. I remember waking up yelling once or twice, but I was told it was even more than just that. I’m the only thing in this world that has ever been able to truly scare me.
Maybe I just let my mind travel a little too far sometimes.
(Source: m-a-p-s)